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if you're all alone, when the pretty birds have flown, honey, i'm still free
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Full Name: April Jane C. Tenepre
Nickname/s: Apyang ♥
Age: sweet 15
Gender: Female
Birthdate: 95/04/15
Status: single :)

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I've built a wall not to block anyone out, but to see who loves me enough to climb over it.

i'm an icelandic princess
I am a five foot short midget called Apyang. I wear a pair of thick-framed black glasses, which people complain are so nineteen-fifty. I'm seen with a book wherever I go. I'm a science geek who wants to get into triple science class. My friends mock me for that, but of course the typical me don't give a damn. Mostly, I heart history. A-ha! I know you guys hate history!
-That's me I ain't have no twitter. I ain't have no facebook. I have a friendster, but it's one year dead. That's because I'm, as shown above, an Icelandic Princess, too cold and proud to mix around.

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just love me day by day
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Thursday 7 April 2011 /04:30

Hai durr, like first of all, I'd like to say I'm in love. No joke. I fell in love.. wow. Idk how it happened, probably because he's a sweet talker, got me there. No one has ever told me how much they love me unlike him. I feel loved, like what I've always dreamed. I'm happy, really I am.


But in every happy moments. There's always an ending. I wouldn't say I'm not happy anymore. I'm scared. I'm scared that I might get tired of him sooner or later. Scared that he'll find someone else. Scared that this relationship wouldn't work. Normal What ifs and paranoid thoughts, we girls think.





I want a fcking reassurance about this relationship.








Kay there. I really wanted to say that.









Life? Fuck you. Thank you very much for the 15 years.
Tuesday 12 October 2010 /18:44

You know what? Life is full of bullshits. We should really expect the unexpected. Things like harmless joke turns into a serious stupid fight. Well, What can you expect? I do have feelings. You know fully well I`m not a robot. And when I`m in a boiling point, I just have to say what`s on my mind, I just needed to release all those negative feelings I have for the past months or should I say years. I just desperately needed to vent and that stupid thing just triggered the button. No one knows I`m grieving. No one knows except myself. No one fully understands me. I just act all happy-go-lucky and be friendly. It`s my way of escaping the reality. Reality is cruel. It has always been and I know it will always be. I hated myself. Insecurity is eating me alive.

My life is not okay, It was before. I was almost happy everyday. Almost. It used to be near perfection. Even though my parents aren`t with us that time. Even though they`re struggling overseas just to let us have a better living. And I appreciated that. I love my parents. Even though I act like a bad kid. And my siblings, I love them. Even though they can be really annoying. Even though we exchange profanities -though it was just for fun- all the time. Even though we almost fight everyday. I love them. I can`t even imagine myself without them. They`re the reason why I keep my head high and be strong.


Lastly, I am an emotional person. Keeping a poker face is hard. Especially when you lost someone dear to you and you don`t even know if they`ll be forgiving you or not.




Guilt is eating me. I need a little help.


Much love,
April ♥